My Journey With Weight Loss – What Do My Friends Think

Today I got up and did my Thursday morning training. After resting for a bit I took the dog for a walk. By time I got home from that walk I was feeling really queasy. I decided to do exactly what my Coach tells me, listen to my body and it was saying something is not quite right. I opted to skip the rest of my workouts today and take a bit of a break. It seems to have worked because after having a light lunch and some sparkling water I feel much better.

My husband came up with today’s topic and I really had to think about it. To be honest other than my neighbours (socially distanced outside) the last friend I saw in person was in October and that was 35 lbs ago. Now don’t get me wrong, I have amazing friends on social media who see my pictures and tell me how awesome I look. For example, when I posted a picture of me at last year’s goal and all dolled up for dinner with my hubby (hadn’t seen him in nearly 10 months at that point) and a friend noted he doesn’t normally comment on FB posts but he had to tell me what a great job I had done. I know that every time I post about a major accomplishment I am going to receive words of congratulations and encouragement. That overwhelming support has kept me on this journey and will help me stay on this path.

But I have been told that the pictures do not do justice to my transformation. When my husband finally came home for Xmas last year and got to see me in person he was stunned. He said he knew I looked very different but had no idea that in person I would have changed so much. Yes, he loved the new ‘look’ and was very proud of me but that was 20 lbs ago.

Does it bother me that my friends haven’t gotten to see me? Sure, but I have to acknowledge it is all about ego. Yes I would love to hear them tell me I look fabulous but as I reflect on this I realize I just want to see them. My ego is so at the bottom of my importance pile right now, helping everyone stay healthy and safe takes top priority and it kind of makes me feel good that I have this perspective. I would rather have taken this journey alone than put any of my friends or extended family at risk.

I know there is now light at the end of this very long tunnel known as a pandemic and it won’t be long until I do get to see friends. I am truly committed to keeping my ego in check and instead bask in being together with everyone again.