My Journey With Weight Loss – Getting Used To My Body

I went to my nail salon yesterday to get a nail repaired. One of the staff there always asks where I am in my weight loss so I told her I had hit the 100 lb mark. She shouted at the top of her lungs, Gwenne has lost 100 lbs. The salon was packed and for a moment there was silence but then everyone in the salon started cheering and applauding. Each woman personally congratulated me and told me how awesome I look. Boy did that give my ego a huge boost.

When I was at physio this week my PT was checking my gait and said, look at those muscles. He’s right, I have very defined muscles in my legs. I had worn a long sleeved t-shirt that day so I couldn’t show him my arms and shoulders which are also very muscular now. While I’ve been lifting weights (only 5 lbs) for months I realized recently that my arms are now very toned. I attribute this to the action of pumping my arms when I train which of course is now 4 times a week.

I have to admit it has taken some time for me to get used to all these positive changes to my body. When I started walking/running the beach again every time I passed a storefront with a large glass window I would see my reflection and wonder if I really was that thin. I realized today that mentality has changed. As I ran past those storefronts today I was still checking my reflection but now it is to check out my gait and make sure I am running evenly on both legs, a much more positive thing to be doing.

I find it ironic that I had no problem accepting my body when I was obese but I seem to have struggled to accept it now that I am thin and fit. Maybe it is because I still don’t believe I have managed to do all of this. Whatever it is, I’m starting to move my way of thinking so that I embrace the body I plan to have for the rest of my life.