My Journey With Weight Loss – Getting My Head Clear

A few of you aren’t friends with me on Facebook so do not know the the struggles of the past few days. Wednesday marked 9 weeks that my brother has been in hospital battling an infection in his foot. It also was the day they advised they had made the difficult decision to amputate his lower leg. My brother struggles with learning disabilities and because of COVID restrictions I have not been there to give him the emotional support he needs. To say this has weighed heavily on me is an understatement.

I’m up at my trailer where normally I don’t workout out as much. I got up yesterday and thought I really don’t want to go for a run. Then I realized what a long day it was going to be to see if the amputation would happen (they were going to do it yesterday but it is now bumped until this morning). I decided I should do an 8 km run but when I started off I realized I had forgotten my AirPods so couldn’t listen to a book. I decided to keep running and just get my head together. I quickly knew I had to focus as my shoulders and neck were really tense so I put my mind to relaxing. After awhile I felt my form was pretty good so I did what I do best, think about next steps and plan for the future. By time I finished that run my head was clear, I felt calm and was ready to take on a stressful day.

It wasn’t until about 5:30pm yesterday that they told us the surgery was bumped but would definitely happen today. Oh goody, I thought, another stressful day of waiting (please note I frequently remind myself while this may be hard on me it is even more difficult for my brother). I got up this morning and decided a 5 km run would be good but this time I deliberately left the AirPods behind because I again need to focus on my thoughts. Once again it worked and by the end I was ready to take on the day.

A fellow runner reached out to me yesterday and suggested I try to do a run as it might help. I told her I had already done 8 km and then said words I never thought I would say, it really helped.

Normally on Sunday I take the day off but have decided another easy 5 km will likely be in order tomorrow.