My Journey With Health And Fitness – Conceding Defeat

I’m up at the lake at our trailer with my husband. He suggests we go for a ride in the golf car around the complex. I climbed in and stopped breathing for a second. It was actually my brother’s golf car which has now been gifted to me. I know that eventually things like this will bother me less but for right now they still impact me. I admit, I would give everything back just to have one more day with my brother.

If you recall just before I left for Mexico in April I had an issue with my ankle. It was bothering me a bit after a bootcamp class then when I went out for a walk (after more than 2 months of running everyday I had decided a walk would be a better idea) and after about 4 km I felt a pop in my ankle and then excruciating pain up my leg. At that point I called my husband to pick me up and take me home. For the next week I avoided all higher impact exercises and cut back on all exercise.

However, I have to admit, 2 1/2 months later and that ankle is still not right. Not only does it ‘twinge’ on a regular basis but it is often swollen. I’ve tried using my anti-inflammatory cream but it really isn’t working the way I would have hoped. Don’t get me wrong, the pain is not debilitating, but it is there and I refuse to risk doing things like running which I miss (words I never thought I would say) and want to get back to pushing myself. However, right now I know I just can’t do this.

And so I will be booking an appointment with my doctor to try and fix this. I admit I have avoided doing this because I fear the doctor will tell me I need to rest that ankle far more than what I am willing to do. But now I admit defeat and realize that if I don’t seek help getting back to running is going to be a very long way off.