My Journey With Health And Fitness – Committed Once Again

Sorry I have missed the last two posts. Saturday it was because we were having a bit of a get together in our condo (the original pool party plan got scrapped due to the rain) so had to get ready. Tuesday was because when we got home I realized how behind I was in absolutely everything so spent the day dealing with everything from the election campaign, my brother’s estate and a ton of personal mail. However, I am now obviously back at it.

This morning when I went out for my walk I had to put on layers of clothing. The temperature was only 5 Celsius which is about 20 degrees less than what it was when I did my walk Monday morning in Mexico. But, I bundled up and out I went. Yes, it was chilly but I am determined to bring my commitment back to what is was before June. This week it is fitness classes with at least 2 1/2 hours of walking each day (with the exception of Sunday but I likely will do at least 2 hours of walking). I also have committed to going back to being conscious of what I am eating and recording and calculating everything.

While we were in Mexico I realized how far off track I had gotten. First, far too much alcohol and I admit it had been like that since I lost my brother. That is not how I want to be so now it on the occasional day I will have some alcohol. Second, what I was eating got back to some pretty bad old habits especially with eating things like junk and especially chips. Don’t get me wrong, when in Mexico I try to make us good, healthy meals and I take advantage of the fresh fruits and vegetables it was just that it was easy to snack on a bag of chips instead of the low calorie popcorn I have down there. I realized all of this while I was at the condo because my clothes started to get tight and once home I put on a pair of jeans and really didn’t like how the felt.

But why now, what has changed that has made me renew my commitment to being healthy and fit (ok, I’m still pretty fit). I acknowledge mentally I needed to do some recovery and while I still grieve every day for my brother, I feel I have gotten strong enough to stop letting that grief take over my life. I’m going back to trying to let my walks clear my head and lift me up (feeding the cats at the condo helped with that). I’ve got so much that is coming up and is going to keep me busy which I know with someone like me that really helps And mostly, I am going to go back to focusing on me.

So, I am committed once again (though my husband will tell you I need to be committed). I am at the point where I am craving feeling good about myself like I was back in the spring. I know I can get there because I have done it before.