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I checked the weather before I headed out for my run this morning and saw there was a good chance it might rain. I actually was ok with this as I figured I already get soaked with sweat when running so the rain might actually be refreshing. Unfortunately it held off until a little later when my husband was out on a bike ride and just as he was almost back at the condo a thunderstorm started bringing pouring rain with it. The thing about being down here is you usually get brief thunderstorms and then a few minutes later the sun is shining. The problem with that is it also makes it extremely humid afterwards and trust me it is definitely humid now.

I decided I needed to give a few confessions about me and this journey I am on. The first one is I am inherently lazy when it comes to physical activity. Now don’t get me wrong, I am not lazy when it comes to work or volunteering but when it comes to any sort of workout my brain is always looking for excuses. That is how I got to being obese for so many years and is how I gained back weight in the year after my husband retired. Once he was home it became so much easier to say, not going to run today or only need to do 10k steps as well as returning to some other bad habits. I eventually realized I didn’t like going back down that road hence joining the fitness centre but even now a lot of days I have to mute those voices in my head coming up with all sorts of reasons not to workout.

The 2nd big confession is that I hate running. Seriously, I hate it. It is really hard work and while it technically has gotten easier lately I keep upping the ante to make it harder. Trust me, my muscles usually hate me when I make them run, my lungs are really not fond of the sprinting I am doing and I cannot stand being covered in sweat which in this humidity is even worse. I still don’t get in the ‘zone’ nor do I feel that runner’s high I keep hearing about and I doubt I ever will. The only thing that helps me get through this torture is listening to a good book while running which keeps me distracted.

So, if I don’t like working out or running, why then do I do it? Well, that is kind of the last confession, I love the feeling of accomplishment when I am done. That to me is the high I need to torture myself some more. You add to that the fact that I am looking and feeling really fit and it helps me push through the laziness to get the job done. I admit I have impressed myself on this trip because I haven’t once tried to talk myself out of a workout or run which has always been easy while I am here, I just think of the goal of not gaining weight while I am here and it gives me the motivation I need.

Bottom line, I am lazy but somehow extremely physically active. Who knew that is where I would end up.

I was surprised when I got up yesterday that the temperature was only in the mid twenties which was way lower that it has been any other day while we have been here. I contemplated taking advantage of this and doing a run but decided I need to keep to my planned every other day schedule to avoid any strain injuries. It ended up being the wrong decision because today was a run day and it was really warm again this morning.

I have been so determined not to lose any momentum in my fitness while I am here. If you have followed my blog over the past year you know that when it comes to Mexico I tend to get lazy after a week or so and the exercising starts to become more sporadic. Not this time, the thought of skipping workouts hasn’t even entered my mind and I plan to keep it that way. Yes, I do have to get up early to get the workouts done by a reasonable time in the mornings but I am willing to continue to do that. Besides, getting up at 5am is sleeping in compared to when I am at home.

But, I have decided I can push myself while I am here. Firstly, I hate running in the heat and humidity. The humidity in particular makes it challenging for me to breath the same way. On top of that, by time I am done a 5 km run I am soaked in sweat and trust me when I say some days my clothes are completely saturated. Yet I am having one of my most successful trips in terms of how much running I am doing.

In order to test my limits I have also decided since I am doing shorter runs than normal that now would be a good time to work on my speed. Yes, I know I have been talking about this for the past 2 years but I am just feeling so invigorated because of all the work I have done that I feel I am in the right head space to really work on speed and take myself out of my workout comfort level. I know how I can do this and the goal is to see a real difference by time I get back home.

I have now set up my Fitbit for interval mode, 4 minutes at my usual pace then 1 minute of running hard. I know 1 minute seems like a short period of time but already the change is starting to happen. My first run down here I did 5 km in 53 minutes, today I did 6 km in 50 minutes. It is amazing how much faster my pace had become over just a few runs. After my next run on Thursday I am going to change up the intervals to 3.5 minutes regular pace and 1.5 minutes of running hard. I can’t wait to see the changes this will bring.

Why do I think I am going to have success this time? Simple, running here is already hard for me to do so adding on to it doesn’t make it that much harder. I figure if I can push those limits here I can do it at home. And really, all the work over the past 3 1/2 months have actually made my fitness level better than it has ever been and it is almost like I crave doing better.

Damn, apparently I am back to a mental state where I am thinking of my self as athletic.

Well, plans today have certainly changed. We were going to go into town to do some shopping and have lunch but we are still dealing with a leak in our utility closet. We know it is coming from one of the units above us but we had no idea what we could do to fix it. Fortunately we contacted our builder and he immediately sent a worker over who seems to have located the problem because the leak has stopped. So now I am getting everything done that I had planned to do tomorrow so I will have the day open and can then go into town.

Today is the end of week 2 at the condo and I am pretty proud of what I have been able to do. My goal is 6 days a week to do a 1 hour Zumba online course and then a 1 hour walk. Along with that, 5 days a week I want to do strength training. So far I have managed, with the exception of 1 day, to accomplish all of that (and even that day when I had tummy troubles I still got in the Zumba class). This week I even managed to go even further with 3 days replacing the walk with a 5k run. I should note that I don’t actually take a day off it’s just Sundays I give myself a bit of a break by skipping Zumba and just doing a run.

So what is motivating me to keep this up while I am in Playa? Well to start with I have met my goal of being comfortable in a 2 piece bathing suit. I worked hard over the last several months to lose weight and once again improve my fitness so I refuse to allow myself to backslide and have to work hard at it again. Don’t get me wrong, when I get back home in 3 weeks I’ll be going back to working out 5 hours a day until I reach my goal weight which I am confident will be before the holiday season starts. Secondly, all my clothes here at the condo now fit again which is always a good feeling. I could get away with wearing them when we were here in May but really only the ones that had a lot of play in them Now, everything fits comfortably.

I do admit that I am eating more than I had been but I hope I have been successful each day to burn at least the calories I have taken in. I know on some days that I have burned more than I ate and drank. My overall goal is to not put on any weight during this 5 week trip but if that does happen I know with more diligence (which is easier at home) that I will be successful in working the weight off.

Sadly only 3 weeks left on this trip but I am determined to keep going and not slack off.

I’m not going to start with a gentle story of what is going on today, instead I am getting right into this post. My husband was concerned about me doing this because he is worried the trolls will be after me. I explained that if I didn’t stand up to hatred, those being attacked could be persecuted so I am just going to have to deal with whatever happens after I hit publish.

Yesterday I told my husband about the first time I met a transgender person. I was in my early 20’s working at a financial institution and this woman comes up to the side counter to talk with me. She had a cheque drawn on our branch to cash but the only id she had was her driver’s license and it was in her dead name (and of course her birth gender). I was young and hadn’t ever dealt with anything like this before but I immediately recognized that she was extremely uncomfortable having to explain her situation so I did my best to be sympathetic. Ultimately I consulted with my manager as to what to do and we found a way to cash the cheque without violating our own policy and rules. Funny, until yesterday I had completely forgotten that encounter.

I want to be clear, in order to simplify this post for readers who may not have the knowledge I do, I shall refer to the community I am discussing as queer and trans. This in no way is an attempt to exclude the broader community that I am covering, I think it just makes it a bit easier. I hope this does not offend anyone.

So yesterday in Canada a group of protesters tried to attack the queer and trans community. They did so under the auspice of saying that SOGI123 (Sexual Orientation and Gender Identity) in classrooms did all sorts of evil things or that parents should be involved in their child’s choice of SO or GI. Now to be clear, the point of SOGI is to educate students on what sexual orientation and gender identity mean to help build an inclusive society. It is not ‘grooming’ kids, it simply tries to help them understand that other kids might be different. This includes teaching them the importance of pronouns to someone who has a different gender identity than what they appear. It does not encourage kids to be queer or trans and I struggle to understand how anyone could think that learning about such things could cause a kid to all of a sudden change but that seems to be the argument.

The inclusive community across the country came out in counter protest. I saw so many cities where the number of counter protesters was far larger than the number of protesters and that made me feel a little better. I saw signs from the protesters talking about parental rights (um, there is no such thing under our Charter of Rights and Freedoms), about how children belong to parents (they so do not) and then of course the religious discourse. It was disconcerting to see the hate that was being hurled against the queer and trans community and I was somewhat ashamed at how my country has allowed this to happen and will proudly stand to stop it from going forward.

I think some of this started because two of our provinces have enacted legislation saying that anyone under 16 cannot change their names or pronouns in school without parental consent. Basically what they are saying is the school is allowed to ‘out’ students. Wow, let’s keep causing psychological damage to the young queer and trans community because you know, that is what a progressive society does. I wish every single person had to read the scientific studies about the damage this kind of crap does to the people in the queer and trans community.

I’m sorry but from what I saw yesterday this was all about homophobia and transphobia. There is absolutely no justification for what these protesters were saying. I ask you all to embrace the queer and trans community and agree that in your space there is no place for hate, period. I truly believe that if we all can’t find the strength to do this now the damage done to young people in the community will be irreparable.

I told my husband this morning that I was going to wait a bit before going out for a run because my stomach was bothering me. Turns out that was a really good decision because 20 minutes later the skies opened up and it started pouring rain. What will now happen is it will clear up and then it will be super humid. Since I already did a Zumba class this morning I think I’ll skip the run and try and do it tomorrow.

I’ve talked before about what awesome friends we have made in our neighbourhood. The last time we were away at the condo they made sure to take care of my sister. Since my brother was also with us on that trip and my sister doesn’t drive they made sure to check to see if she needed to go anywhere including taking driving her to a Celebration of Life. This trip they are helping with things like walking our dog which is greatly appreciated but really, that is what friends do for each other.

We are finding the same here with our neighbours at the condo. We rely on cabs to get around while we are here including for grocery shopping. However, our neighbours are now checking in with us if they are going anywhere to see if we want to come with them. One in particular told us he would take us to stores that are a bit of a drive away if we needed to pick up certain things. We gave him some push back on that offer and advised we don’t want him to go out of his way. Like our other friends here he said he would be glad to do that for us.

We are cognizant of never taking advantage of our friends especially here. We never assume they will offer to take us places or to drive us to and from the airport. However, they come through for us every time. This to them is just friends being friends and that sort of kindness makes me happy to return the favour whenever it is needed.

Another day and we have more fun planned. We are heading to one of our favourite areas downtown for lunch at a great little restaurant. Then tonight we will be off a Mexican Independence Day neighbourhood party. After giving myself a bit of a break diet wise this week, my goal is to be a bit stricter next week. Having said that, I haven’t strayed too far off the path but I want to get firmly back on it.

I have stuck to my workout goals all week. That has meant getting up early and doing a Zumba class. So far I have tried 4 different ones but I am just not sure that I am really enjoying it. Now don’t get me wrong, I’m burning a good number of calories in each class which makes me happy. And, I make sure before I start that I turn on the air conditioning so that I am in a comfortable environment. I do like the fact that I am able to switch up the classes so that I don’t get bored but that also comes with challenges.

My biggest problem seems to be learning the steps. In one session called ‘concert’ it had a bunch of people on a stage leading the audience through a Zumba class. The problem is they didn’t teach you the steps, they just assumed if you were watching the video you already knew them. There is a class where they do teach you some basic steps but I found that one didn’t give me a good enough workout. The other classes seemed to quickly show you the steps but I think my body and brain are too old and I just can’t keep up. The bottom line is I feel like an uncoordinated buffoon the entire time I am working out.

Ok, time to reflect on the fact that I said the exact same thing when I started bootcamp back in June. Those first few weeks I felt the same way. It was just as challenging since each instructor did different moves that had to be learned. It took me a few weeks but eventually I caught on and now I don’t have any problems doing bootcamp. Likely it will be the same with Zumba and in a few weeks I will have mastered it.

Well, I just talked myself into sticking with Zumba.

Once again I was up early this morning to get in a Zumba workout before heading out for my walk. I admit, I did not like today’s session and have mentally noted not to do that version again. After a quick rest and rehydrating I started out on my walk. Now you need to picture, it was only 7:30am and I wasn’t 10 minutes into the walk before I was soaked with sweat. Oh yeah, it is going to be a hot day so I think pool time is required for the rest of the day.

I committed to myself on this trip I am not going to lose any gains I have made in my fitness. In order to do this it means I need to make sure that each day I am doing work focusing on strength. However, there was problem that I noted in past trips to the condo, finding weights. Now I did manage on a previous trip to find some 6.5lb weights but quite frankly in a lot of my strength training exercises I have surpassed those lighter weights. So, we started searching for 10lb weights but were not having a lot of luck. Then yesterday while out shopping my husband found some weights for me. The only problem is they cost about double what we would pay at home but I bought them anyways. And so today I did a full upper body strength training session and it felt good.

But it is not just upper body strength I need to keep going, it is also my core. I decided that every day I need to do a series of core strengthening exercises so that I am just as strong when I return home in October. Over the last 3 months I have learned a number of great exercises that I can do and it gives me a good variety to mix it up each day. However, I realized just how far I have come since I started this new journey. Two of the exercises I have been working on are dead bugs (lay on your back with feet and hands in the air then drop a leg and opposite arm to the floor) and leg drops (lay on your back with your feet in the air and drop both feet down to the floor). The trick to these exercises is only dropping your feet as far as you can until your lower back starts lifting off the mat. Much to my surprise when doing dead bugs I can let my heels hit the floor without my lower back coming up at all. Even with leg drops I am getting pretty close to the same. That means my abs have really come a long way.

Despite being in Mexico and giving myself a bit of a break food wise (this week only then I have to stay on track) I am determined I am going to keep working hard. I actually want to return home and feel not that I have lost any strength but rather gained it. If I can do that then my trip here will have been a complete success.

Crap, it is hot here. My husband opened the living room windows this morning and the gust of air felt like he had turned on the furnace. It is supposed to stay like this for the rest of this week. No, I am not complaining because this is why we come down here, to get away from the weather at home. I will admit to being disappointed because by the end of the week the weather at home is supposed to be sunny and hot. Really, I enjoy it so much more when we come down here and the weather at home sucks.

We arrived in Mexico Sunday evening. We didn’t even unpack (note, we brought 3 suitcases but they were all filled with stuff we needed for the condo as opposed to clothing) just headed off to our favourite restaurant for dinner. While we could have ordered in doing a brisk 15 minute walk there and back was just what I needed after the long flight. Somehow I still managed to get in 10k steps that day. I also realized I needed to take a day yesterday as we had so much to do including a lot of shopping for groceries and supplies for the next 5 weeks that it wasn’t feasible to find a few hours to work out. I did, however, manage to get in the pool but in all honesty no real swimming was involved just lounging.

But today is a new day which means I was up early for a healthy breakfast. Then I tried my first Zumba class. There are 7 classes in total through my video on demand system and this morning’s was learning the basic steps so it was a little more low keyed than I am used to. Still, managed to burn some calories and learn something new. There’s a few steps I need to work on but this looks like it is going to be fun. Moreover, I like the fact there is going to be a variety so it won’t get repetative.

I gave my self some rest time after Zumba and then it was off for a walk. I have now gotten so used to walking in our complex I don’t even have to look at my watch to know when I have gotten in an hour of walking. I will admit though that even at 7:30am it was already getting quite warm out. Still, I got my walk in and because of the Zumba class by time I was done I had hit my daily goal of 10k steps (seems odd given I am used to doing 25-30k each day that I am satisfied with 10k). Still I wasn’t finished as I then did 30 minutes of strength training focusing on my upper body and then my abs. All in all by 9:30am I had finished my 2.5 hours of working out for the day.

While it may seem premature to be bragging about getting through 1 day of working out while at the condo, I need to publish it to help hold myself accountable. I need it out there for people to see so that in my head it would be embarrassing if I slacked off. So, keep reading my blogs for the next few weeks to help me make my goal of working out at least 6 days each week while I am here. And maybe if I am successful at doing that a few more pounds will be lost before I get home.

Yesterday was my husband’s birthday so I took him out for lunch to the Noodlebox. We had been there once before and he really liked it so I thought it would be a nice treat for him. The problem of course is the noodles that comes with each dish are high calorie and high carbs. So, I opted to have mine with zucchini noodles and was surprised how much I liked them. Just that simple change dropped over 200 calories off my lunch and since I only ate 1/2 of the dish my calories were in line with what I normally have for lunch. But really, it was a nice treat and very enjoyable.

First thing tomorrow morning we fly to Mexico. We will be in Playa del Carmen for 5 weeks and can’t wait to get there. Of course my siblings will take care of the house and pets. But, the trick is going to be keeping myself on track which is even more important because I am 2/3 of the way to my weight goal (I weighed in yesterday and had again lost weight). I am determined that when I come back I will weigh no more than I did yesterday and in a perfect world I will have lost a few pounds. The question is, how am I going to pull that off while still enjoying myself.

First of all, I have worked out an exercise plan with my trainer. It is still going to be every day but will be dropping from 5 hours per day to 2 1/2 hours (note, since I started on this new journey on Jun 6th I have only had 1 day where I didn’t do any exercise). My day will start with an online fitness course followed by an hour walk then 30 minutes of strength training. My challenge is the heaviest weights I have found in Playa are only 6 lbs and I need 10 lbs to help keep me where I am now. The trainer gave me some tips on what to do if I still can’t the heavier weights that will allow me to maintain my strength.

The second issue is going to be meals. I fully intend to continue to log all my food in my fitness app and while I might go over my daily goal, I will be cognizant of it always being less than the average calories that I burn. On top of that, I am going to do everything I can to avoid the trap of eating out. We are fortunate that there is such a variety of fresh fruits and vegetables in Mexico that it should be easy to continue eating healthy when we make our own meals. Don’t get me wrong, there will be eating out but it will be far less frequent than normal for us in Mexico and even then I am going to try to make healthy choices as often as possible.

Finally, alcohol. Ok, I admit we tend to drink more alcohol when we are at the condo. Late almost every afternoon we meet our friends poolside and have a few drinks. However, my plan is to opt for lower calorie alcohol such as light beer or liquor mixed with diet soda or club soda. Yes, there will still be wine involved but I’m trying to make that occasionally.

I know it sounds like I’m taking all the fun out of this trip but really, it is just about making the right choices. I know at every point during the day where I am at calorie wise and that will guide my food decisions. And really, since I have pretty much given up snacking I am confident I can stay away from junk food. I also know there may be a slip or two in this plan but if I can keep it to only a few then I think I will be successful.

This morning was Power Hour with Rebecca. I normally really enjoy these classes as she is an awesome instructor. Today, however, I found it challenging. Rebecca had us do this segment with single leg dead lifts. If you haven’t experienced this, you hold 2 heavier weights, bend down at your hips and while doing so lift 1 leg out behind you. If you do it right you bend over to the point where your back and the lifted leg are parallel with the floor. To say this is a major challenge in balancing is an understatement and it is an exercise I don’t think I will ever get the hang of.

I got home from the lake on Monday and decided to put on my favourite long sleeved t-shirt. I’d avoided wearing it for so long because it was a size small and that size had stopped fitting me. I was thrilled that it fit quite nicely and I was happy to be wearing it again. Then yesterday when I went out for an early morning run I decided I needed to wear long workout pants because it was a bit chilly out. I decided to try a funky looking pair but was hesitant because they were also a size small. I shouldn’t have worried because they fit well.

After those successes I went for the gold ring and pulled out my stack of jeans. I was sure I had kept 1 pair in size 8 but I was wrong. Instead I was looking at half a dozen pairs all in size 6. I assured myself that it would be ok if they didn’t fit but I knew it wouldn’t and would disappoint me after all the hard work I have done these past 3 months. I picked a comfortable fit pair and tried them on and they fit!!! Yes, back to wearing size 6 jeans. Ok, I acknowledge I avoided the skinny jeans, I think I need a few more pounds before going down that road.

Tomorrow I am doing my pre-Mexico weigh in but regardless of what the scale says, I know that I am making progress. Here’s hoping I can keep this up while I am away.